So, over a year ago I started this blog. I got one post in and stopped. Actually, until today I had no idea that my other blog was even published on here. Through the suggestion of one of my best friends, I started journaling. She was right, it is EXTREMELY therapeutic! Then I was reminded of this whole online journaling thing and thought I'd give it another shot.
I was reading through my journal the other day and the pages of my journal are filled with signs of love. Pure, unconditional, beautiful love. Some of that in the form of my love for others, some of that in the form of others love for me. But the most evident was that of Christ's love for me. As I read over what I wrote on March 16, 2009, I am amazed at how much life has changed in just this short amount of time. That short time has been filled with fun times, new friends, new babies, life-changing decisions, broken hearts and broken dreams. The one thing that has not changed though is God's constant love for me. Just a few months ago I was in one of the lowest spots of my life I have ever been. I was confused, conflicted, and honestly, I was not the best version of myself. Through the feelings of self-doubt and shattered expectations, God kept constantly reminding me that He was in control and that even though I doubted myself, that I definitely should not be doubting Him. Did I always listen? No. But He never gave up and continued to remind me and show me of His love and direction for my life. Does that always make things easier? Honestly, no. Does that mean I've given up all expectations? No, I still have complete hope and faith and I still continue to pray that God will give me the desires of my heart. But it does feel pretty darn good to know that He is in control. I am FAR from perfect. I screw up big time and make big mistakes and bad decisions from time to time. I am so glad to know though that I am loved through all that.
Ok, so reading that I realized that was a little deep :) Just what was on my heart and I wanted to share. I hope my blogs won't end up boring you! I'm not the best writer in the world and there will probably end up being a ton of random stuff on here but I still hope that you enjoy! :)
XOXO,
Kara
